Who can tell me how i feel now i so confuse?

Since the day of school reopen is already pass three day, this three day no matter what i do after she appear in my sign where i can see her i can't be my normal self lo ( i dun darn to see her , talk to her and whatever), my whole body feel so uncomfortable like something is hitting or some heavy thing laying on my chest cause me have breathing difficulties. I almost cannot tahan la must go toilet wash face to cool myself down, let try to wait for a few day more ba maybe i will feel better and get use to it.

This week is a week that geting all the term test paper back and so far all the result i get back for me is all right ba because is a result that as i expected after i done each paper, so wish i can work harder on my course work and my final exam. Today go cut my hair wish can cut away all my unhappy memory that i dun wish to remember wish it help.

Hmm also this few week i also cannot speak or talk too much , why because this few week the word that came out from my mouth 75 % - 80% will come true and i also dunno why so i must shut up and keep quiet haha( if like that i can buy 4D or toto le sure win hehe). And also now at the end of every sentence that i speak there will be " sia sia sia sia" lol maybe too long didn't eat prawn le maybe tml i going to eat food that have prawn in it ba haha.

To za:

hello za i win the gamble from u that my math get more then 80+ but now i dun wan movie ticket just buy me a lunch will do because if i get the ticket i also dunno call who to go and watch with me , if got now i also dun feel like ..... nvm. That all :).

To shir: